I am not going to lie...I thought about weight loss surgery many times. In my early twenties I always told myself, "if you can't lose weight on your own before you are 30, you will do something drastic at 30". In January of 2008 I went to my first information session about WLS. I started the process and got all the way to April and the last step was loosing 5% of my body weight. I tried and tried and just couldn't stay focused. By August I stopped going to my appointments and gave up on the idea. I wasn't ready I guess. I felt like a failure. I spent so much time and money on getting to doctors appointments to do this and I didn't have the will power to give it up. For the next 3 years, my weight stayed about the same. It would fluctuate 10 pounds up or down depending if I was dieting or not.
I turned 30 in January of 2011. I had an amazing birthday with friends. I was so excited to be 30! The summer following my 30th birthday I was the worst summer weight loss wise. I was eating whatever I wanted. I decided that I was going to allow myself to eat whatever I wanted in hopes that if I restricted myself I wouldn't want the fatty salty food anymore. WISHFUL THINKING! Who was I kidding. Did I really think that was going to work??!! So, in August I decided to go to another informational meeting, enough was enough. I've been 30 for 6 months and I didn't want to live my life fat an alone.
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